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Sunday, August 30, 2009
hell week
As usual, i forgot the existence of my blogg.
This work week was bad. and by bad i mean breaking down a couple of times at work, feel like a lowly worthless zilch value add worker, working till the wee hours and feeling guilty when i sleep at 2 cos i haven finished the list of many things on the to-do.
and on top of that, unkind comments were made and not well received by my sad heart. and then i have a very depressed other half. so basically no one to count on. felt very sorry for myself. and seriously all that went thru the puny brain was for Him to take me home. so that there can be no pain no tears no sadness but just plain joy overflowing.
things has changed since yesterday tho. a good chat with kimchi made me realise that whatever the both of us were doing just made things worse. we think we suck and thus no encouragement to either party, and that made us think that we suck even more. do i actually make sense? so yes, we're gonna try. try hard to make things work, to build each other up, to be there as a constant reminder that there's more to life than work. pray for me alright? i need that strength to go on the next few months of 'hell'. and i guess i need love from more than one person.
and on a very different and random note. some happenings today made me wonder (it has been thought of before) is it actually possible to love someone when you have not gotten over the anger and pain of the previous relationship? i really dont understand how. hmmm.
it rained at
2:34 AM